More Abstract..
Have recently been intrigued by something called objectivism and related philosophies. The best person in the feild, as always has been Ayn Rand, and none other than Leonard Peikoff can explain her ideas in simpler terms. Like "here
the very essence of her philosophy.
Am on the look out for her non-fiction works now, and should blog more often on that hereafter.
Quotidian quotes...
8:00 Am: I reluctantly open my eyes, to have a look at the clock, only to stare for a full minute and realize that I am late.
“The anomaly lies in the algorithm”
8:30 Am: Am all ready and take one last look at the mirror, searching for any proximity to posing a neat image.
“The world is infested with losers; good that you found yourself.”
10:30 Am: I open all the bioinformatics sites that I am have been just asked to, in order to perform some usual work on allergenic sequences.
“Confusion arises out of experience”
12:30 Pm: I glance blankly at the CAT FLT for the nth time now, discovering that it was of course not a very good decision I had made.
“Remember there is no room for your mediocrity in this commercial world, just when you think life is a bitch….it has puppies”
6:00 Pm: I take a final look at my tattered purse, draw the only 50 rupees note out to purchase the much awaited ‘pav bhajji’. Promises of being frugal with my finances and to keep myself away from such extravaganza looms large.
“Assumptions is the mother of all fuck-ups”
11:00 Pm: Snuggling inside my quilt, I sit down to pray . I look up and put forth my arguments as to how the whole day I had been questioning his existence not to find any answer. As always I wait…I wait…I wait….and as usual “no answer”.
“Do not argue with a fool, they may never find the difference.”
I soon fall asleep, my only concern being..the new day will come…
Doomsday Version 2.0
2nd December '04, A rainy little evening and one of the most dreaded Genetics Comprehensive Exams has come. As if to add to my misery, I overhear an over concerned student talking about PS II results.."Jesus Christ! i never knew they were out as yet?"
I trot back faster, my heart thumping ten times its normal pace..nervously clinging to a set of books in my hand (thank god: read SKV, for declaring an open book comprehensive, I managed to score for the first time in genetics)
"Most of them have got it in Lucknow, why would they make an exception in my case?";To this a concerned friend of mine answers "haan yaar! You wont get it in Bangalore(sarcastically)...its fine..chill, u will get what u want!"
I ran back to my block, almost feeling weightless now, open the door to my room..run a mad search ransacking the whole place..my eyes fall on a glistening white envelope..."AAh! there art thou!"..
With trembling fingers I open the same, only to find something I had never wanted to come across. I was blank for almost a minute now, a voice in my head in prophet-like fashion announced "Its only for the good.." I trudge back to my friend waiting outside, expressionless...fighting down a visceral feeling in my abdomen. Hand over the envelope and look away..
All i remember after that is a blur of events, which I definitely recognize to be unpleasant. It was like a 20 minute documentary on Afghani refugees, conveying..the meloncholy..the vengeance..the condolences..the sighs...the promises...the sympathy...the arguments..the emotional drama...everything in fast forward mode. My dreams of a six-month vacation at Bangalore crumpled and thrown back on my face. Every detail I had dreamt of now sobbing under the rubble..defeated...dead...decomposed...
Four months have gone by now, and I realize I have no regrets. I have been happy..happier actually. Have made an amazing friend both here and back in Pilani. I was handed over my stipend last month (it did feel real good) and it is now i recognize how things just fit beautifully in place.
